Musing No. 72 - New Connections

Our unintended hiatus from playing has not only come to an end but it seems we are fast approaching a fucking streak with a plethora of sexy prospective partners. My cunt is still pulsating from our erotic fuck fest a few days ago, which has me anxious for our next rendezvous.

We have a date Saturday evening, after we get back into town, with Callie. Callie is sexy, curvy and feminine. She has a deliciously dirty mind, which I am quite anxious to put to good use. As an added bonus she is open to delving into our ideal situation of a girlfriend (whom we could play with both together and separate). She is spunky, confident and doesn’t shock easily. We’ve had a delightful time discussing our mutual fantasies and I am excited to see if the chemistry continues when we meet in person. Oh, and yes, she is a hairstylist. I think I may finally be able to cross off a couple of items from my Sexual Bucket List.

Next week I will be meeting up with another hottie at a toy party. I am excited for a girl’s night out! However, this is a bit out of my comfort level because she is not the type of woman I am typically attracted to. Physically she is sexy as hell. However, her forwardness has been somewhat off putting. I do like outgoing women, but her version of aggression is more brash than I am accustomed to. The best explanation I have is that she is the type of woman who fucks and lives like a man. She is unapologetically vulgar with her sexual innuendos. She is unabashed in her sexual exploration. When I write this statement it sounds almost hypocritical of my feminist view of sexual liberation and in fact she should appeal to me. So why does this female aggressor intimidate me so? I am unsure. Perhaps I feel inadequate in some way because I am not so open sexually. Yes, I love sex. Yes, I write about it in my blog. Yes, I enjoy multiple partners. But there remains that remnant of the ‘good girl’ I was raised to be and there are some things I still just don’t say or do and ‘good girl’s’ are not the aggressors. I realize how ridiculous this sounds but there are some lessons that are so deeply ingrained they are difficult to unlearn. It’s my determination to move outside my comfort level and to think outside the box that has me intrigued with this saucy minx. So, I’m going to the toy party, determined to have a great time and who knows…maybe I will learn a thing or two.

We also have tentative plans to meet up with a poly couple. They have experienced romantic partnerships in the past and are looking for either a physical connection or perhaps something more. This is most certainly new territory for us and I am unsure if poly is something we plan to delve into. But they seem to be great people, we have a great deal in common and most certainly interested in getting to know them.

There are some other less interesting prospects that have shown interest in us. However, I don’t like to throw out a wide net, preferring rather to get to know a select few and see where those connections lead.

I am enjoying this renewed sense of my sensual self and feel encouraged to have attracted the interest of so many wonderful people who wish to share their sensual selves with me.